today i'm Alice.

It is a constant struggle to act as though everything is swimming along smoothly when it isn't. I was living a lie, to the world, to myself.

We look at people and imagine we know them. We don't know them. We can't know them. Everyone is a mystery. I was a mystery to myself.

naked, untitled paintings.

Suddenly realised that life is slipping away, way too fast. The lament of a Maple tree. Mute in life and death in song.

And I guess it is true. You should not follow the herd, because they won't necessarily lead you to the life you want.

I guess no one will ever get close enough. The occasional pangs when I think about what could have been. But I know I will never break through that barrier. They will never be close enough.

seeing in B & W

J in B & W

Maybe life's not so bad in Black and White after all. There will be plenty of grey areas though. As always. Thank you GAP for the photo! (:

drink.

就這樣躲著吧..

understand.

No, the second time is no better. What makes me think that the second time will be easier?