big blue monster.

can you hear me.

Even though it hurts but a little, tears form
My heart screams out
If I pass in front of you, beside you
You were my whole world
I want only you
But I can't breathe when I'm in front of you
As if you weren't my destiny
As if this was just a fleeting moment
Next to you, who just let me go so easily
I go closer to you step by step
Although I cannot move at all
You make me restless, you make me cry
Like a fool, like a child
I want to just laugh it off instead
The closer I get to you
Although I get more scared
I guess I cannot stop this love

Why is it just my love that is late
Why is it just my love that is hard
Although I'm right in front of you, although I'm right beside you
You were my whole world
I see only you
But when when I'm in front of you, I always look away
As if you were my very last
As if it were my very last moment
Next to you, who just let me go so easily
I go closer to you again step by step
Although I cannot move at all
You make me restless, you make me cry
Like a fool, like a child
I want to just laugh it off instead
The closer I get to you
Although I get more scared
I guess I cannot stop this love
If even from a long distance
I could look upon you
That's what you call love

If perhaps this yearning, this longing
When it sounds, when it touches
Please just act like you didn't know
Although the closer I get to you, the more scared I get
I guess I cannot stop this love

my few hours of craziness.

So many random things I do when I am bored. But I wonder why I always never think of doing my tutorials or readings. If all the time is invested properly, I would not have that pile of untouched work on my table now.

white liquid-papered nails.

Suddenly felt that these fingers are so bare. Not that they have been pretty much occupied in the past, but nonetheless, they still feel bare. Maybe it's not the fingers that are bare. Hating the psychological repair system now. Why can't I remain in that high state for a tad longer. And trying to play that song with these white liquid papered nails. Yes, I'm going to get more rings. I need to weigh the fingers down. And I need to get in touch with the keys again, how wasted it will be to lose a skill after ten years of practice. Speaking of skill, I really need to brush up on my Chinese. Please speak to me in Mandarin from now on. And I shall reply the smses in simplified chinese as well. How awesome can that be!

the best day yet.

Awful dreams aside, 2010, a new year and a new start. 1603hrs. Thank you for making my day, now I can only keep smiling like a retard. The jaws are turning numb, but I just cannot rub the smile off my face! Really cannot believe how such a small and minute thing can make me feel like that. I wonder what will happen if only you knew how much it meant to me. "hehe"

River Hong Bao 2010! Went on Monday, not a lot of people compared to Chinatown on new year's. I seriously swear some guy was trying to press himself against me, because I could feel that he was having an erection. How I wish I had brought my needles along.



And a Happy Valentine's Day.

And I do not know how on earth I could have dreamt that YJ got chicken pox. Messaged him and he confirmed that he indeed got chicken pox last year. Oh my.

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"Hey I still don't understand why I have to pull my ears." It's okay, you don't have to know. How cute can you get? (:

one more day and it would have been.

Airshow 2010. Free ticket and free buffet lunch. Thank you! Though the small blade and pineapples tried to kill me, it was a perfect day because of that certain RSF(:

UPDATE: I dreamt of YT Loh last night. He was flying his plane and the announcer said his full name, but I can't remember it now. No stalking tonight. ):

because tomorrow is.

Is the hippo shooting electricity sparks out of her bra? =D

And because the car stopped in front of the bus stop, with a friendly honk and a friendly wave!

And also because I have to promise myself about what's not to happen within two years. Can the next one wait?

And at the same time, because he has a friend and another he's from civil defence.